What's New Year all about?

Did not write for some time. Enjoying some peace during the holidays.

Muharram 1430 H has just started. Endless text messages beeped on our mobile phones. Same with me. Thank you, people. Sorry if I did not reply your text messages. I may have forgotten but the thought counts a lot.

New Year 2009 starts tomorrow. As usual, we will have a list of new year resolution. DO we really follow the list or we just merely do that in order to follow the current of what others are doing?
Only we have the answer for that.

I will be back in Sabah very soon. Mixed feelings again, but this time, I will go back with more confidence (ye la, gaji dah ade kan..heheheh).

To all out there, i would love to seek apology for all the hurts I have caused in you, for all the spiteful words I have said and for the unintentional or intentional acts I have done to you. I am very sorry for that.

Happy New Year 1430 Hijriah and Happy New Year 2009. May Allah bless the new year ahead of us and may this year be a better one than the previous years.

Hajj, its relevance and its revelation!

long time didn't write ah?!
sangatlah sedih sebab laptop masih dirawat di hospital laptop.. so, no mood to use the PC.. (eleh, habis madu, sepah dibuang.. dulu ada PC je, pastu dah ada laptop, ngada2 taknak guna.. tak syukur lah tu)..

bukan mcm tu bah.. PC yg dah sangat usang ni makin susah untuk digunakan.. takes hours to tyoe and suddenly, before publishing an entry, it goes blank! daripada I sumpah serana PC ni, baik I guna untuk kerja ringan2 seperti download lagu (ahaks.. kerja ringan weh...hahaha)

anyway, going back to the title.. iduladha has just said bye bye to us.. but what more important than the meat and mutton is the Niat (intentions). why do we bother to sacrifice some goats and cows when we don't even bother to clean our hearts?

the material does not mean much to Allah, what is counted would be the sincerity in the qurban. although it has been ages since the first qurban started by Ibrahim a.s., the essence of it is the one we should highlight.

i went for one of the jumaat prayers in Gelugor, and nearly laughed my heart out during the sermon (opss.. i didn't, because during the sermon we have to be quiet). Dr Danial mentioned that there are places where the mosque people would distribute some coupons per family so that that could be used to "redeem" the meat that are to be given after qurban. what happens today is that there are some human beings who photocopy the coupons just for the sake of the free meat!

sama-sama kita fikirkan ye..

(jgn jadi mcm artis.. semua benda"no komen".. we have to think and realize what is going on in our community and even in our religion)

Exam Fever..

Waduh.. Waduh.. Kursus Induksi also got exam meh?

Aku demam dan selsema sudah! tambah plak nak jadi emcee untuk majlis penutup esok.. heheh.. will give my best shot.. Hos emcee esok, aku dan pipah(ratu lawak TEYL).. mcm manalah kami terpilih, wallahu a'lam..

Kawan2... (ramai2 jawab "ye"..)
sabtu ni kami ada exam..
(ramai2 tanye "oh ye ke?")
ye.. tolong doakan yer..
(ramai2 ckap "ok, insyallah")
time kasih...
(ramai2 "sama2")

the end!

You will know why!

I went to a party,
And remembered what you said.
You told me not to drink, Mum
So I had a sprite instead.

I felt proud of myself,
The way you said I would,
That I didn't drink and drive,
Though some friends said I should.

I made a healthy choice,
And your advice to me was right,
The party finally ended,
And the kids drove out of sight.

I got into my car,
Sure to get home in one piece,
I never knew what was coming, Mum
Something I expected least.

Now I'm lying on the pavement,
And I hear the policeman say,
The kid that caused this wreck was drunk,
Mum, his voice seems far away.

My own blood's all around me,
As I try hard not to cry.
I can hear the paramedic say,
This girl is going to die.

I'm sure the guy had no idea,
While he was flying high,
Because he chose to drink and drive,
Now I would have to die.

So why do people do it, Mum
Knowing that it ruins lives?
And now the pain is cutting me,
Like a hundred stabbing knives.

Someone should have taught him,
That it's wrong to drink and drive.
Maybe if his parents had,
I'd still be alive.

My breath is getting shorter, Mum
I'm getting really scared.
These are my final moments,
And I'm so unprepared.

I wish that you could hold me Mum,
As I lie here and die.
I wish that I could say, 'I love you, Mum!'
So I love you and good-bye.

(taken it from an email that I received from Sharifah Al Bukhary,

Thank you sis)

BUSY - Being Under Satan's Yolk?

Well, just felt like typing out something.
I have been busy with lost of stuffs..
Got a new cam la! Adoi.. Will upload pics when I get my lappy back on my lap.
For the time being, it is being treated at the Centre because boat trips at banggi and kudat have spoilt the DVD ROM.. sangat kesian.. takpelah ujian Allah tak pernah henti atas hambaNya.

Thanks to syapiQ kerana sudi meminjamkan PC yang ala-ala gedebab kepada aku... nanti aku akan upload gambar PC gedebab syapiQ.. wahahahah..

BEING UNDER SATAN's YOLK?? sama-sama kita fikirkan bah...

A story to share...

I quit my job, my relationship, my spirituality... I wanted to quit my life.

I went to the woods to have one last talk with God.

"God", I asked, "Can you give me one good reason not to quit?"

His answer surprised me...

"Look around", He said. "Do you see the fern and the bamboo?"

"Yes", I replied.

"When I planted the fern and the bamboo seeds, I t ook very good care of them.

I gave them light.

I gave them water.

The fern quickly grew from the earth.

Its brilliant green covered the floor.

Yet nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo.

In the second year the Fern grew more vibrant and plentiful.

And again, nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the

bamboo. He said.

"In year three there was still nothing from the bamboo seed.

But I would not quit.

In year four, again, there was nothing from the bamboo seed. I would

not quit." He said.

"Then in the fifth year a tiny sprout emerged from the earth. Compared

to the fern it was seemingly small and insignificant...But just 6 months later the bamboo rose to over 100 feet tall.

It had spent the five years growing roots. Those roots made it strong and gave it what it needed to survive.

I would not give any of my creations a challenge it could not handle."

He asked me. "Did you know, my child, that all this time you have been struggling, you have actually been growing roots".

"I would not quit on the bamboo.

I will never quit on you."

"Don't compare yourself to others."

He said.

"The bamboo had a different Purpose than the fern.

Yet they both make the forest beautiful.."

"Your time will come", God said to me.

"You will rise high"

"How high should I rise?"

I asked.

"How high will the bamboo rise?" He asked in return.

"As high as it can?" I questioned.

"Yes." He said, "Give me glory by rising as high as you can."

I left the forest and brought back this story.

I hope these words can help you see that God will never give up on you. Never, Never, Never Give up.

For the Prayer is not an option but an opportunity.

Don't tell the Lord how big the problem is,

tell the problem how Great the Lord is!

P/s- Thanks Fadzil for the wonderful story

THE TALKS

Been a tiring day. Fatigued. Run Down. Flabbergasted.

opss.. I forgot another favourite word- DISCOMBOBULATED! (syitah mesti bengang lagi dgn perkataan nie.. muahahahah)

Behind all the tiredness, something remarkable is the relation between the mind and the lectures.

Whatever said during the lecture does leave an impact,be it greater or maybe just a simple one to all of us (wait.. if you did not fall asleep during the two-hour slot each)

Educational managements, financial in education and the history do tell us something about the profession we are in.

An old saying goes like this, " As a teacher,we should be a guide by the side and not a sage on the stage"

How far is the truth?

I feel that as teachers, I have to put up with multiple roles so that I won't be distressed with all the endless workloads (hmm... does that mean I must be a hypocrite, adding to THE LIST which has existed so far and there are more people going into the list day by day?!) think about it.

and now..

Time to go to Lalaland, where nobody is a hypocrite there. I love it there. ALTHOUGH IT IS ONLY IN DREAMS, AT LEAST PEACE AND SERENITY is available there, bah!

For a moment...

Got back from BTN already!

What a tiring week! Swear, damn it, bloody flabbergasted!

One thing that made me so happy of the BTN was the Poco2 session... hahahah.. true, indeed, it was wonderful to use the poco-poco dancing/aerobic steps with Chinese, Indian and Malay song and even more wonderful is to see all Chinese, Indian and Malay participants dancing their ethnic dances in poco-poco steps! fuyooo... a big round of applause for the coordinator for being such a sweet lady!

What's more important behind that is the understanding that we share. Put aside the endless talks on Kontrak Sosial (redundantly said to make sure we hate their talks, lol), what more on the LDK sessions which might have hurt us in anyways it could. I feel that the same plates we shared, the food we ate, the jokes we laughed about and most importantly, the thoughts we discussed will remain forever and must be put at front so that this would be the most important agenda everytime we enter a class to TEACH.

The independence we have today will only be passed on to our younger generation if we have the openness and the ability to appreciate what we have.

I end the entry with a saying:-
"To love and to be loved is the greatest thing in existence"

Let's spread our love wings to everyone so that love exists everywhere we go!

Tag, Tagging, Tagged and Tagged!

First response from Syitah when I post the announcement that I have started a new blog... "Matno. you are tagged!!" aku pon tidak paham apakah maksudnya until I finished reading her post on tags!

THE SELF
[01] Real name: MUHAMMAD NOOR
[02] Nickname: Matno, Noor, Specky, Abang, Si Manja (wahahahahah... buweeeeeekkkkkkkkkk)
[03] Status: still single but I guess not available anymore for the time being.. ahaks!
[04] Zodiac Sign: The ever giving Water Bearer-- Aquarius
[05] Gender: tengok ah seniri...
[06] Age: 24 years old
[07] High School: SMK Abdullah Munshi
[08] College: IPP and UUM
[09] Height: not sure la.. aku ni tinggi gak le...
[10] Weight: ni lagi la tak sure, sebab sejak p sabah, dah gemuk sikit... tanya syitah, dzull, yat dan reen!
[11] Do you like yourself: I love myself! (kiasu..hahahahhaha)
[12] Piercings: --
[13] Right or left: right
[14] Are you a freak :tak kot.. tapi i freak naik kapal terbang..kesian syitah kena torture dlm flight arituh.. ya ampun...
[15] Hair: black bah!
[16] Skin: dah sun burn... no more pure chocolate.. hahahah (mesti dzull nyampah dgn ayat nie)
[17] Allergic: crabs! too bad, banggi sells ketam for rm11 three kilos!!

[18] What are you doing now: completing this kerana terpaksa..kang syitah cakap i tak update blog..hahahah

[19] What will you do 1 hour later: meet my darling Aizu kat maktab and go shopping kat tesco
[20] What will you do 10 years later: make babies..hahahahah

THE FAMILY
[21] Live with mother/father/parents/family: in penang yup with parents and brothers,in sabah with other muslim teachers
[22] Siblings(including yourself): four
[23] Eldest: of course!
[24] Youngest: what the helll.. mcm tak syncronise je soklan2 nie..
[25] Love/hate your family: love la.. dah banyak diorg buat utk aku, bah!

THE LOVE
[26] You’ve found your other half: am i fragmented!??
[27] If yes, who is he/she: tunggu kad kawen nah...
[28] Who you want he/she to be: pamela anderson! hahahah... takdela, jadi yang terbaik yang dia mampu, bah..
[29] Time(s) you in relationship: baru je kan? sejak p sabah, dah "bertunang".. yat, reen dan syitah pon
[30] Ever woo a boy/girl: yes pernah... selalu gak dulu2...
[31] Anyone woo you before: oh, mestilah..kan i famous..
[32] Did anything wrong to your other half: tiru jawapan syitah--to errrrrrrrr is humannnnnnnn....
[33] What was/were the wrong you had done: kerana mulut handphone jadi binasa! hahahah kena marah le..
[34] Ever argue with your other half: all the time for all the things
[35] You with your other half since: ulang lagi soklan nya... adoi...
[36] Are you straight/Lesbo: bisexual.. hhahahahahaha.. kan best dapat dua2...
[37] Reasons you love your other half: check my blog URL!
[38] You and your other half in which stage: dekat nak p bagi cincin dah nie..
[39] You woo him/her or he/she woos you: both play our cards well, daaa...
[40] Ever think of marrying him/her: kalau tak aku tak p bagi cincin kan? emas mahal tau dak!!!!!!!!!

THE FRIEND
[41] Your first best friend: Hafizah Bt Rosli
[42] Your first enemy: tak ingat la.. aku tak suka enemy2 nie, tapi aku cepat merajuk dgn orang...
[43] The friends you love the most: ramai da.. sorry tak dapat list here.. kang ada yg kecik ati.. but they know who they are
[44] The enemy you hate the most(1 only): kan aku dah cakap kat atas tuh... ni survey gossip ke?? ceh
[45] Your most beautiful girl friend: ehem...ehem... kang ada yg kecik ati.. semua lawa... hahaha...
[46] Your most handsome boy friend: Mr Hussein!
[47] The kind of girl you hate the most: suka sangat menagih attention tak kena pada tempat
[48] The kind of boy you hate the most: belagak siot...
[49] You fall in love with your close friend before: YES
[50] Your best friend is your ex-lover: NO
[51] If your friend back stabs you: dah takde perasaan ckp bab2 nie.. mcm dah banyak kali kena.. so relax je
[52] If your friend betrays you:mampoi p kat dia.. but i will mark it forever!
[53] If your friend woos your lover: siap dia!
[54] If your friends fall in love with you: buleh ja, tapi will i fall in love with her/him? eh.. apa aku cakap nie? heheh
[55] If you fall in love with your best friend: please refer no. 50-jawapan mcm syitah gak...

[56] Are you a good student: yes.. {belagak nye.. tapi memang betul kan? hahahah}
[57] You always done your homeworks/assignments: assignment yes, but homework selalu gak tiru Nisha..
[58] The teacher/tutor you love the most: Cik Siti.. hahahaha... "teacher yang beranakkan you all" --fav quote!
[59] Always late to school/college: mana ada.. tapi kat UUM yup.. ntah sebab pa aku pon taktau.. malas nak pikir
[60] Your class: TESL 3/ TEYL 3
[61] You love your seniors: i takde senior.. i la senior.. so, juniors love me, I know.. hahahahhaha
[62] Senior who you love the most: -null and void-
[63] Your classmates good/bad: macam-macam adaaaaaaaaaa...
[64] Excellent result classmate: betui ke excellent? habaq mai sat national philosophy of ed
[65] Laziest classmate: Zai...rajin dan malas dia tak kena tempat.. ya ampon! hahahhahaha

THE PEOPLE
[66] Smart people: who knows how to use their brains well!

[67] Stupid people: suka menipu dan kena tangkap (translate apa syita cakap).. why we think alike, syitah?

[68] Good looking people: yg pandai bergaya dan kena pada occasionnya.. tak mcm TEYLians.. ramai taktau nak kena pakai apa waktu bila.. p lecture pon pakai jeans.. adoi!

[69] Ugly people: yg tak sedaq diri pastu pakai gak mcm hero..

[70] Funny people: aizu dan dzull...

[71] Cute people: me bros and I... JEdy!

[72] Bad people: masuk neraka punya geng la..

[73] Honest people: mak bapak aku da..

[74] Acting people: aishwarya rai on the top of the list...dia pelakon handalan..

[75] You are what kind of people: suka menyanyi., pleaser!

THE PREFERENCES
[76] Lip or eyes: eyes of course...

[77] Hugs or kisses: hugs!

[78] Shorter or taller: shorter...

[79] Hesitant or spontaneous: spontaneous

[80] Nice stomach or nice arms: nice stomach, mcm aku le!!!

[81] Listener or talker: both

[82] Romantic or rich: aku ni romantic, so biarlah dia rich!

[83] Good husband or Good Father: both

THE FUTURE

[84] Age to get married: 26,27,28 (ikut mak aku, 24) adoi!!!!

[85] Numbers of kid(s): 2

[86] Career: Educator da...

[87] Salary: sangat sedih, aku tak dapat lagi gaji!

[88] Wishes: biar gaji aku masuk bulan ni...tulung!!!!

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thanks a million syitah for making me sit kat depan lappy for so long to answer all the questions. hope you are happy da!!!

Teaching in Sabah...

Hmm.. Stay in Sabah has come up to the fourth month now! Wow, time flies like nobody's business. I realize that I have grown to love the place I am teaching, the kampung people, the teachers, the goats and cows (oh ya, crocodiles are quite rampant in my area-- were they once tame??), and not forgetting, my darling students!

One thing that always lingers in my mind is-- The tidiness in whatever they do! I had my teaching practice back in Penang and was teaching in the heart of the town where pupils there were mostly from well-to-do families and did not have much of a problem as much as financial and education are concerned. I had hard times reading their untidy writing although they were darlings too! But in the place where I am teaching, the kids neatly wrap their textbooks with rice plastic packets or even the black plastic bags which we use as garbage plastic bags here!

To see that disheartens me a lot. But what makes me go all out to teach is their determination. They are indeed very poor in many aspects. Financial wise, they are given everything for free by the school. From school uniforms to pencils and erasers and also the free milk drinks (I had some too..wink wink)

Teaching and learning in class at times tire me a lot. All because there still are pupils who don't even know their ABCs although they are already in Year 4 or 5 or even 6! My question is-- What were the kids doing when they were in the primary classes? What did the teachers do then? To my surprise, when I asked around, I got to know that there were only 4 teachers (the HM, PK1, PK HEM and the one and only surviving Ustaz Wan) to teach 60 pupils all the subjects!

Then I got the answer for my dilemma. What I am doing presently is just drilling the kids whom I am teaching -- Year 1, 4 and 5, with reading. We only did reading lessons for the past three months and subsequently, we came up with writing and speaking lessons. Thanks to lecturers in I4p and UUM for giving us materials during our course which helped me a great deal in teaching songs and simple stories to the kids.

One fine day, my HM asked me-- "Noor, kau tak rasa malu bah menari dan menyanyi dengan tahun satu?".. Blushingly, I answered "Tak lah, lagi seronok ade!" Then he added, "Kau lah cikgu lelaki pertama yang saya tengok rilek2 je bile menari dengan budak2. Baguslah, sekurang2nya ada jugak budak2 tu nyanyi2 lagu orang putih kat sekolah dan rumah diorang, bah!"

wink wink... My HM spies on my class???!!! Ceh!

A long way to go from a very long start!

Well.. The title explains everything.. I haven't written for so long (totally occupied and equipped with school work plus no internet nor mobile coverage at Banggi Island which puts an undeniable full stop on my writings in the Internet!)

Have written in Friendster for a couple of times, but as my dear friends (like Syitah, Yati and not forgetting Dzull and Anne) who have always been motivating (did you people motivate me?! wink wink) to start a blog and keep it updated so that mine wouldn't fall in the "dead blog" category (quoting Dzull), at last, I found the time to start it

I am thankful that I can write here with all my heart and soul (wallaweh, jiwangnyeee..) to share and to be aware, to give and to live and finally to learn and to earn in anyways that can make me and others happy.. (ye ke??!)


I know my future writings would be at times emotional when other times it would be thought provoking and sometimes craving for attention (hahahah), yeah, need your views be it supportive or negative (anything da..) so that it can help me to cope with what I am going through or any of my friends or someone I know is going through any kinds of situation which you can help to repair.

Till then, I adjourn this entry with what Jedy ( a friend in my school) said to me when I first was asked to "teach" English for the teachers there. "Sir, something and everything here is terpelanting!" and my reply was only ... "What the.....????"